deeper than words

people around,
yet in some way,
never felt more alone.

unspoken expectations,
when all things start to crumble.
but are we just afraid of what is to happen
if we let the bunny out the hat?

some days,
not enough words between us,
an undeniable connection.
some days,
the silence amplifies to deafening levels,
a killer, that makes no noise.

no such thing as “finding yourself”,
that is something you create,
only you and no one else.

growing tired,
of being the one that checks the boxes,
the safe choice,
the picture perfect
for everyone else but myself.
plentiful are the unfulfilled needs.

your eyes glimmer
filled with unspoken words,
thoughts you keep to yourself.
you try to anyway.
darling, for you
I would drown in your sadness,
to take it all away, along with your pain
just to prove to you that it is all going to be okay.
if only you could understand.

a ponytail,
showing me more of your face.
now more prominent, the enigmatic looks you give.
swings left, then right as you walk away,
my least, yet most, favorite sight.
my mind always wondering what you’re thinking about.
one thing is for certain
fighting my urge to grab you and get you closer to me,
where you belong,
so close that I could taste you.

you make me feel wildly unsure,
but yet, never been more certain of anything.
all at the same time,
the power of you.

is it truly a desire to disappear,
disappear into the obscurity that is life,
or is it a wish to simply be found.

time slips through my fingers like sand,
wet grains sticking like memories.
addicted to the idea of us being one,
willing to do what it takes to show you my love.
they say, proof is in the action
please stop pushing me away.