deeper than words

il tuo essere
che mi fa
insaziabile.

running away,
or towards,
from what we fear.

the mystery
of what could have been,
forging each step,
leading me back to you.

romanticizing unconditional,
all until,
it’s our turn to be.

thoughts of you,
a constant
that won’t subside.

in the quest of quieting this voice
often requires taking a step back,
perhaps, even slowing things down.
the required remedy
leading to the deepest of love.

days pass,
within a blink of an eye.
still on the same quest,
the purpose ever so resolute.
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bypassing the superficial,
showing that the first reaction,
is a mere distraction
to what is deeper still.
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what once felt like chaos,
now within the forced gaps
allowing time to make
sense of it all.

within the acts of omission,
it is clear that
anger, perhaps hypocrisy,
outweighs guilt.

as I lie awake
staring at the ceiling
engulfed by the darkness,
settling in, just long enough
that my eyes begin to clear
and see what is near.
—
a deep breath…
guests are here
bearing darker gifts,
begging for me to hear.
—
welcoming them in,
with a warm smile
as I become the muse, of my own,
will you stay a while?
—
hours pass,
time is up,
to fade away
forcing my mind at bay.

most is lost between
what is meant
and not said,
and what is said
and not meant.