deeper than words

pain breeds anger,
punished not for your anger
but by your anger;
deadliest of self-inflicted poison.
a cancer to the mind.
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thyself,
who feels the aftermath.
antidote is in the control,
unraveling the pain
piece by piece,
leading to forgiveness.

the perfect picture in our mind.
of how things ought to be
making the easiest decision,
the obvious one,
the only one,
the hardest.

for the time yet to come,
wishing it was with you
you and I,
ought to be forever…

the required silence
words fighting to be kept constrained
not so silent within.

a desire for a lasting love,
with no end in sight.
boundless by the passage of time.
the battle in our mind
is the fear of the love that will last
but the lover left,
leaving us hollow.
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a sense of misfortune,
when our body shares
a resolute mind and a hopeless heart.
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trying to not love so deeply,
or at least until the other matches our depth
unsure if it will ever be.
hand-in-hand,
the depth of your love today
is the depth of your wound tomorrow.
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not everything in the heart can be said,
some feelings are beyond words,
but your silent cues
from the way you look,
to the way you smile
and the way you hands feel on my skin
tell me all that I need to know.

unquenched thirst
for the turmoil you keep within,
to be the calming voice to your storm.
loving you,
for reasons you’ve never been told
in ways you’ve never felt.
waiting for the day
we get to share
the same starry nights.
with you,
until our last breath.

like chapters in a book,
the passage of time being captured one word at a time.
transcending the feelings through actions.
vulnerability providing the strength needed
to explore the unknown,
mental house cleaning.
facts shattering delusions
as the mind plays chess,
pondering the next move.
irrelevant
the black and white
so long you navigate the gray,
always moving.
what was once hidden,
now no more.

who understands the worst of you,
the keyholder,
unlocking the hidden parts of your heart.

always more, bigger, better
the twisted games the mind plays
in the name of not “settling”.
the beauty is in the simplicity,
for those who go seek it.
oftentimes, nothing is what you’ll settle for,
never enough.

as the feelings begin to fritter away
in my quietest moments,
is when they engulf me.
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when it is just you,
in the loneliness of your surroundings
I wonder if my words linger in your mind
penetrating deeply within you.
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I need for no one,
but my want for you
never seems to fade away.