deeper than words

writing these thoughts
as they come to the surface.
bobbing in the water,
slowing long enough
to catch my breath.
unfolding much more,
as I wrestle with the now.
a journey to lighten the load
by seeking levity within the metaphors,
making light what once felt so burdensome.

you will be mine.
let me feel all of you,
by your side
for a lifetime.

you make me feel that I have a chance
at this thing we are looking for,
and when I try
you quickly make me realize
that I never really did.
on a one way road
headed in the wrong direction.
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unreciprocated love.

wishing it was blind lust
getting lost in you
hoping it will not end.

tick-tock tick-tock,
with each passing second
time amplifies
what you feed it.

time carries on,
so do the shadows behind us
becoming larger as they trail.
forgetting that,
what lies ahead dwindles in contrast.
—
moments of fulfillment
failed to be enjoyed
at the hands of impatience
for what was to come.
—
now left with history,
mere memories to be called upon.
no match against the gravity of life.

missing what you can’t have.
the price you pay,
for being reckless
in love affairs.

seeking answers to what is kept hidden,
how you handle the truth
is where growth lies.

thinking we are chasing happiness
killing what matters
assuming the grass is greener on the other side.
but I suppose weeds are green.

I wouldn’t sacrifice our love
to my darkest of days.
I wouldn’t leave you
yearning for the proof.